Why does life have to be so complicated?

Why does life have to be so complicated even though we watch butterflies, rainbows, and blue skies?

YES,  I think life is not just about who you meet and what you do…  It is about how the people that you have the gift of meeting, engaging, loving, endearing…

That is life… Is not  just about people… It is about experiences. Which brought me to the love of my life…. A day on a boat will change your life…That is what makes us, us………………

So, as a 39 year old it is not fun to have health challenges over the last several months…For someone my age, I would expect these complications to weigh me down much later in life (such as menopause) Laying in bed with concerns undiagnosed… It has been frustrating..

Between ObamaCare, changing or finding doctors that I have worked with , or researching on the web, and struggling with the various western doctors and methods was exhausting… to an understatement. 

That said I found vibrant health through alternative medicine and getting to the root of medical challenges, healing them, not just treating them. Understanding eastern and western medicine.

I choose to focus on the positive.  So today brought that whole vision together.  I found myself at my 4^th follow up appointment at my now,  new gynocologlist that I am meeting for the first time after 3 visits. This is the beauty of Western Medicince… Gotta love those Nurse Practicioners' invading space I only allow my most coveted men (or man)….  They are as intense, compassionate, and qualified yet lack the fair pay, and let me say most are women…. My NP was incredible.

Do not get me started on the 2 months I spent trying to solidify the upgraded plan that I paid more for, so I could have care from trusted doctors.  

So here I am, listening to a gum smacking, tooth popping, burbing chick, even though well  dressed ,and needing the same invasive exams as I, yet she sat there as impatient as I am .Making me more anxious and wondering when this doctor will finally see me… And will this encounter relieve me of the question and yearning I feel for Tim and Timontin (My name for him).

I should start by saying that I spent 17 years with my first gynecologist, the one who my mother still sees, and the one who delivered my two younger brothers, whom I adore…

That said, now pressing against the gauntlet of my next decade, with complicated heath challenges and not living close to my doc for frequent visits,, I finally decided to switch gynecologists. As also advised by my primary doctor, family, and friends even though he was someone who had handled many of my many complications.

So while my new doctor,  who fondly knew my first and only gynecologist, who performed 2 surgeries for endometriosis and was there for me through two miscarriages, I still questioned the desire to explore a new-age female doctor who would find the formula that would be the cure-all.

And so here I am, advised that other than surgery I have no option other than birth control to manage my endometriosis that leads to cervical or ovarian cancer…  Birth control reduces sexual interest, increases weight gain, nausea….And that interrupts my daily spontaneity.

I am sorry… I am in a healthy sexual and lovely relationship that I do not need birth control with. I cannot, nor my partner wants to have children. I get the chemical benefits doctors try to convince me of: reduced cysts, regular periods, less bleeding, decreased cramps, but they are actually trying to convince me into a drug that would take away from the beautiful relationship I now have. And many of the benefits I already experience.

I am not shut off to these potential benefits. But I am super committed to exploring what could benefit my body naturally. Thank you Western medicine. You keep us alive… That said I want to stay healthy each day if I can with natural remedies that will stimulate growth and strength.

So I walk, I run, I ride, I love, I cook, I eat, I love…